Sicky

My husband is sick. He has been throwing up and using the restroom since about five o clock in the morning. He even has a slight fever. We think it might be food poisoning. He has this thing where if he eats eggs and milk together (ok not MIXED but you get what I mean) he becomes really sick. Well, so he says. But seeing how sick he is makes me think he might be a little bit right. Like if I eat pancakes and orange juice or lemonade I almost always throw up. Whats up with that?

Anyway, I'm just spending my day taking care of him and trying to feed him soup and Gatorade so he can rehydrate, inshallah. Never realized how much I care when someone gets sick. If any of you are ill, just call me up because I'll totally pamper you. Unless you don't like chicken noodle soup. That is the only thing I know how to make.



Chicken Noodle Soup. Chicken Noodle Soup. Chicken Noodle Soup with a Soda on the Side.
(Its a song.)

Dilemma of the day

My mother in law came to me, asking me if I could download a bunch of music videos so she can play it on the TV at work. This way customers won't just stare at her and the other workers, they'll instead focus on the videos.

Right away I said yes. Man, why don't I think before I speak? So now I'm like umm...what music video out there does not have a broad dressed up like a hooker, shakin her thing like she is having a seizure?

I'm sorry MIL, but my husband works there at night, and while I trust my husband I'd rather not voluntarily put Shakira and Beyonce right in front of him. (They are SUCH good dancers though, Mashallah!)


So I've put it off three days, and she keeps asking me for it. I'm not the kind of person who is afraid to say no but...we are in a sticky situation. I LIVE with her. And I'm serious when I say that she will be offended if I tell her no. Her kids won't do it, so she is depending on me in a way. I keep trying to do it- to download the videos and such- but I'm serious when I say I feel like I really can't.

The mere guilt is getting to me, since its haraam on more level than one. But like I said, my husband has enough respect for me and the commands of Allah swt to lower his gaze (and I'm totally on his case if he doesn't...sorry sweety) ALHAMDULLILAH. So I will not put the haraam out there for him or anyone else.

A look into the past.

A while back I was on an old email account and for whatever reason went onto the virtual 'notepad'. I saw a bunch of entries I did not remember having ever written, until I realized they were years old, and were in fact my diary entries.

Please ignore my spelling errors. I'm horrible at spelling now, but even worse back then.

ok hi. i would like you to know a little about me. like i'm a girl and my name is[AlabasterMuslim] .i'm 11 years old. my birthday is january 5th. i'm at my grandpa and grandmas house ,that is in wisconsin,for the month. this was kinda a bad way to start my internet diary but it will do. my best friend is amanda. i oringanally live in ohio. i'm up here for a visit.i would like to tell you thet today is july 2cond 2003. i will make the next diary entry better. well i hope i will figure out how to save this.
your new writer, [Alabaster].
p.s. my nick name is glow girl so thet is what i will call my self. so love "glow girl".

lol. Even then I loved nick names. Its a long story how glow girl started, but I kept it until two years ago.

july3, 2003
dear diary,
hi i'm back. to day me and my brother and cousin 'A' and my mom are going to go to the mall.it is going to be soooooo much fun.my cousin is only four though. she likes to complain a lot. i don't care though.she is pretty mature for her age. she is really tall for her age to.
i don't really have a secret admirer. wich in a way is kinda of a bumber. because over the summer it is fun to you know some one to think about. i think it 's kinda becuase no one likes me exsept this onr dorkey boy. he is so gay!i think no one likes me in school because they know that if they mess with me they are going to get thier bbutt kicked. most girls can only kick the guys. and slap them wich they never do. but i can actly puch them.

in third grade i went out with this boy named 'C'. he dumbped me . i didn't even care. but i kinda did because i alway dump the guys not them dump me.so tnis year thatis now over but. this school year i toatly hulmileated him.he diserved it. i will tell you how tommorow when i write again.

your friend,
glow girl

Just to clarify, any boyfriend I had was an omg-he-gave-me-a-cookie-that-means-we-are-bf-and-gf. HA. I was totally in denial though, I don't know where I got the notion that I humiliated him (or hulmileated lol) because I certainly did not. Proof though that young kids are totally thinking about the opposite sex.

P.S. YEAH BOYS WATCH OUT BECAUSE I ACTUALLY PUNCH! (I'm dying on the other side of this screen. I was so confident in myself, wasn't I?)

Prisoner No. 650 * AFIA SIDDIQUI *

I found this in my inbox today. Allahu Alim if its true or not, I pray that it isn't. Sadly there are people who go through situations like this.


Prisoner No. 650
Dr Aafia Siddiqui,
A Pakistani PhD. Having 144 Honorary Degrees & Certificates, In Neurology, From Different Institutes Of The World,
The Only Neurologist In The World Have The Honorary Ph.d From Harvard University,
Hafiz-e-Quraan,
Aalima,
Not Even A Single American Matches her Qualifications,
Was Kidnapped along with her 3 children, By the FBI from Karachi, With Help of Our Government Alleging Connection with Al-Qaeeda,
Now She is in USA prison,
Having Lost Memory, Due to physical, Psych ological & Sexual Torture,
She is Imprisoned with Men,
But We,
The Muslims are
Dead,
Even this Message will remain in our Inbox, until we delete it.
Protest!
If you cannot do anything,
Just forward it and just Pray for Her.

Plz spread it !!!!!

Some more Dua is needed.

Salaamu Alaikum everyone!
Just wanted to ask for some Dua. Skipped my period again, and its really starting to get to me. I just want everything to be normal with me. I am not taking medicine, my insurance just ended so I can't go to the doctors...Ya Allah.
There are some natural remedies to induce periods, but I honestly don't trust them, I don't believe they will work. *sigh* I can go up to three months before starting my period again...For real I'm about to cry. The weird thing is I know I need to start it. I get all the same symptoms - MAJOR PMS! I feel like a wreck- I need to scream, cry, run around in circles and sleep. Plus, I'm breaking out. So basically I get all the symptoms, but not my actual menstrual cycle. I know I just need to stay patient, but its so hard....Just please, Make dua for me. Thanks.

Sex before Marriage

I don't like posting too many times in a row, I don't want to have anyone get burned out on my blog. (Plus, I don't always have much to say). But today when I was watching tv, the subject of sex came up (when does it not).

It got me thinking, man I really was just so ignorant when I was younger. Or maybe it was the fact I was just innocent.

Everyone always told me, don't have sex before marriage. And while I appreciated their advice, I never really thought twice about it. Having a mother and a father who were both very religious, and both VERY against sex before marriage, I should have realized how bad it was. I feel like I should have understood. But I really didn't. How could have I? I had never had sex, so I didn't understand...the intimacy, the importance, the VALUE of virginity, and giving it to your one true love (i.e. husband or wife).


Now that I'm married, I understand. I understand that it is not only for reproducing, but its a form of (hopefully) immediate bonding and love.


So the thing is, if I had parents telling me how important it virginity was, and I still really didn't understand, how can my children?

Maybe I didn't understand fully because my parents were split up, and they never came together to talk to me about it, which possibly would have had a bigger impact on me? Instead I was scared into not having sex instead of having it fully explained...maybe it was just me.

Today, I feel like all my life I was really praying to Allah Swt. I never prayed to another god, and I never believed there was more than ONE god. But at the same time, I was not learning about Islam and I did not call god Allah. So was that why I never understood? Because I was not muslim?

Will I have a better chance at protecting my future children (inshallah) by having myself as a mother and my husband as a father, uniting, explaining, trying to let them understand? Will bringing my children up as strong Muslims allow them to maintain their innocence and virginity? If I watch over them like a hawk, in a way my parents were not able to, will that help keep them from sinning and making a big mistake?

If there are any young muslims (AND NON MUSLIMS!!!) reading this...I'm telling you. DO NOT HAVE SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE! One day, when you marry, you will be able to experience love, happiness, and sex with your spouse. And then you will really, really understand what I am talking about.

Once my mother told me a simple reason for not having boyfriends or sexual relations before marriage. She told me that when I do marry, if my spouse knows, he would be so jealous. I didn't really think about it. But if you think of it this way...if you DO have a boyfriend, or if you can imagine having a spouse...imagine knowing about an ex girlfriend they had. You thought that special way they said your name, or that loving way he looks at you, or the inside joke you two have...you thought it was just you but no- they have shared that with another girl or man. Personally, that thought sends shivers of jealousy all over me.

Giving away your virginity is one of the most precious things you could do. If you value yourself enough, others will value you too. Your husband or wife will appreciate the wedding night so much more, and every other night so much more.


I pray that I can really teach my children about the importance of virginity, teach them the importance of self-worth, pray that all of you can keep your pants on until you are married (lol), pray for forgiveness for those who have had sex before marriage.


Note to future children: I'll try my best to teach you. And if you act out, I am totally grounding you. No, no do not tell me I am being overbearing. I am trying to protect you from the hell fire, so show some appreciation!

What once use to be a full, healthy and complete nail.

A few weeks ago I slammed my nail in a window. It hurt! I was in front of others so I didn't cry, but man if I was alone some tears would have definitely escaped.

Its kind of childish but I always feared losing my nail. My little brother once slammed his finger while playing with a sliding glass door (poor baby, he was only about three or four). First his nail turned black, then seemed to...'swell' or something. It was like his nail had ballooned upwards off of his skin, except for all of the edges. I love that boy but even I would keep his hand far away from me.


So for a while I was really hoping my nail could make it. Even though there was black blood pooled beneath the nail, I had hope. Then one day I noticed the middle of my nail was cracking. I helped it along (stupid on my part). It was hallow under my nail. You know the skin you might accidentally cut if you are not to careful when using nail clippers? Well I pushed that skin down a little bit, trying to get a view and I started screaming when I realized that the skin was no longer attached to my nail. (or vice verse I suppose).

I had to take some nail clippers and start cutting down the middle of my nail. Dried black blood fell out everywhere, sooo nasty! My skin is soo tender now. I guess I'm just going to go and put a band aid over it for a while until my nail grows back all the way. Alhamdullilah my nail is not forever damaged- there is already a few centimeters of beautiful, clean, white nail coming out.



But for real, that finger looks nastyyyy. Even my husband is like "Damnnn keep that thing away from me!" LOL. So naturally I'm going to shove it in his face to show my love. haha.